I wrote the following because a new lover asked me (her) what I like and I (she) had no idea how to answer.
What is your favorite color? he asked.
She doesn’t know.
She really doesn’t know.
Not because she likes so many colors
that she cannot possibly choose one
but rather because she cannot
feel anything at all.
A girl who does not know what she likes
is bound to get swept away by the
ideas and wants of others. No?
She is floating.
She is drowning.
She is being swallowed.
She belongs to anyone
who happens to want her.
Sometimes wanting you seemed like a long
Exercise designed to make me feel things.
To make me feel myself.
Enormous Hunger.
You kept me from eating you up
Thank God!
To have that hunger frustrated
Offered m a chance
to feel
my tremendous yearning.
Appetite.
My own longing and need.
Mouth, groin, stomach, nose, lungs.
Every place that can take in
ached to be filled by you.
Learning.
To feel my own wanting
To tolerate
And revel in
a state of yearning.
Creative Acts.
To rewrite my life
so that my desires can
drive me more.
So now ask me.
Please. Just to see.
Ask me what I like
Ask me what I want
Ask me what I need
Go on.
Ask me.
Your “Beloved,” is what you need. You yearn and long for Him, don’t you?
Always have, always will.
He’s there, part of Him is in side of you. The Divine part that can mix with the desire you feel for one long kiss, a smile, the soft touch that will cause your blood to burn for more and more.
Enjoy this moment. You fall in love almost everyday looking for your Beloved in the eyes of friendly, helpful imposters who know only part of you, but can never quench the thirst that knows no relief.
Until now.
Find Him.
Look.
He’s closer than you think.
Let your Self go.
And He’ll find you.
Again.
michael j
Conshohocken, PA
in response to something she wrote!